Freedom
February 20, 2007

This quote on Caterina.net (from The Soul of Money by Lynne Twist) really resonates with me:

Most of us think that freedom means to keep our options open ... Eventually though, keeping your options endlessly open becomes its own prison. You can never choose. You can never fall in love. You can never marry. You can never take the job. You can never really discover your destiny because you are afraid to commit fully.

If you look back on the experience of freedom in your life, chances are that it wasn't when you were measuring the options against one another, or making sure you weren't getting stuck with a decision. It was when you were fully expressed, playing full out. It was when you chose fully and completely, when you knew you were in the place you were meant to be in.

For a long time I tried to preserve my freedom my not committing to anything, and it led me nowhere. (Ask me sometime about the dark, dingy basement apartment I lived in because it had a month-to-month lease. I couldn't commit to a year-long lease; I might -- for instance -- suddenly quit my job and move to the west coast! ... How long did I live in that apartment? Three and a half years, longer than I've lived anywhere since.)

It was only when I started making decisions, committing, choosing one path over another -- instead of sitting stubbornly at the junction, refusing the decision -- that I felt much more satisfied with my life.


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